When I See You Smile

This week I saw my Mom in a dream. I walked into her house and immediately heard laughter. Within a few steps, she and my sister came into view. They were sitting at the kitchen table playing cards…probably “speed.” They were giddy…and competitive, but having fun! She was wearing a blue Kansas Jayhawk shirt and white Capri pants. Mom looked at me and smiled.

I have been thinking about her lately. We’ve been watching a lot of college basketball and she loves the Jayhawks as much as I do. Frequently, she would visit around this time of year and we would buy KU t-shirts together — gearing up for March Madness!

The photo included in this blog is from four years ago. We were cruising in my swagger wagon on our way home from the mall with four of her granddaughters in tow. If I remember right, it was a good day as we were all together (and we bought KU swag). What a beautiful coincidence that in the photo, she’s wearing a blue KU t-shirt AND her beautiful smile. I miss that.

Empty Chairs, Everywhere is a personal grief diary as I process the loss of my Mother to COVID-19.