The Hallmark Channel has been showing Christmas movies since late October. These shows have always reminded me of my Mom, her kitchen, and the holidays. We have shared a lot of laughter over these silly (and oftentimes far fetched) movies! I remember making fun of her obsession with the Hallmark Channel and then, before I knew it, I was addicted, too. Crazy but true.

Still there are other movies, family favorites, that not only remind me of her, but take me back in time. Tonight, Funny Farm with Chevy Chase was on AMC. I don’t think I ever classified it as a Christmas movie, but I get it now. There’s something about the holidays! It’s been a while since I laughed out loud at a movie — who can resist the “cue the deer” line? Truly funny. 18 months after her passing and my first thought was to text her that it was on TV. I know she would have tuned in and we would undoubtedly laugh at the same parts. Maybe the line should be “cue the tears” instead? Bittersweet memories.

Empty Chairs, Everywhere is a personal grief diary as I process the loss of my Mother to COVID-19.